At some point, y’all are going to have to pry all my Halloween stuff out of my cold, dead fingers. I am loving it. This is my favorite time of year for so many reasons, but in large part because you get to see the darker side of creativity on Second Life. It’s fascinating (and admittedly, just a little scary) seeing what people come up with sometimes. And I am drinking it all in like a fine wine.
I’ve been dealing with a lot in the real world lately and doing a lot of trying to keep my head above water while I wait for a few things to fall into place. It’s been stressful, but I am reminding myself that it’ll be worth it when everything works out. In the meantime, I’m glad I’ve got good friends to help remind me that not everything goes wrong all the time. Just sometimes. To me. But we’re not going to focus on that, are we? Because we’re being positive.
There are people in my family. who believe that depression doesn’t exist and that you should just smile more. I think that’s a steaming pile of doo. Smiling more isn’t going to fix things. But you know what? Talking will. Being honest about your feelings will. Seeking help and leaning on the people that love you when you need them will help. It’s easier said than done sometimes. I know this. I know this because I’m a withdraw-er. When I’m feeling like garbage and I’m stressing too much, I start building up my little wall and hiding away. But I’ve got friends who will show up with a sledge hammer, knock that thing down, and hold my hand while I figure things out. And that’s worth something. Sometimes, this time of year is even harder. There’s less sun, less warmth, less light. So you have to make your own. You have to look for the light in places you might not have looked before. And when everything tries to bury you? Just claw your way towards that, say “fuck this shit,” and celebrate that you came out on top. Every single little victory is worth something. It really is. And eventually, if you take all of those little victories, you’re going to pile them up and realize that they amount to a lot more than you thought.
Kick ass and take some names while you’re at it. Sometimes that can be something as simple as getting out of bed, or getting a shower, or getting a load of dishes done. If you did any of those things today and you’re struggling, be proud of yourself. None of us are perfect. We’re all clawing our way out of our own messes at any given time – some of us just don’t talk about it as openly. Be proud of you for the things you accomplish, and know that it gets better.
And if you ever need to talk to someone, hit me up. Someone was that person for me once. I’ll gladly be that person for you.
I love you guys. ❤
[Head][LeLUTKA @ Equal10]Gaia
[Body][The Shops]Legacy Mesh Body Special Edition (1.3)
[Skin][Nuve @ Hallow Manor]Arwen Skin (Pearl)
[Lips][Suicidal Unborn @ The Dark Style Fair]Vampira Lipstick
[Neck][Lilithe @ The Dark Style Fair]Sreca Tattoo
[Bruises][Misschevious @ Hallow Manor]Dead Inside Tattoo – Dark
[Dress][Holli Pocket @ Hallow Manor]Annelle Wrap (black)
[Mask][Moonphase @ The Dark Style Fair]Nail Halo Mask
[Pose][BellePoses @ The Dark Style Fair]Mystic 3
[Prop][BellePoses @ The Dark Style Fair]Tombstone
[Tune][Ruelle – Bad Dream]