Okay, I couldn’t help myself. There’s probably a special place in hell reserved just for me based on that title alone, but it’s been a long couple weeks, alright? I made myself giggle and that’s what counts.
So, here’s the rundown:
I think I’m closing on my first ever house at the end of October. There’s still ~things that could go wrong, but I’m trying to do this “be the optimist” thing and remind myself that bad stuff doesn’t happen to me all the time. Just sometimes. A lot. On occasion. When I least expect it. But… so far, nothing too bad has gone wrong with this and everything seems to be in order and we’re literally less than two weeks away, so I feel like at this point, if anything happens with this house, I’m probably going to turn into Nova in my photo here… or dig a hobbit hole and just live there. I dunno. But hey, at least I have options, right? (See… optimism!)
I have been going through therapy several days a week for over a month now that has taken time away from lots of things, including but not limited to work, both here and in real-life, my sleep schedule, my comfort level, and last but certainly not least, of course… my ability to manage my own pain levels. Which is a kick in the teeth for me because usually I can handle quite a bit. It could be the combination of discomfort and pain creating the perfect storm here, but I’m ready for this to be over. Alas, more therapy was ordered today because I had to literally file a complaint to get my PCP to sign a piece of paper the specialist had already filled out for her because she doesn’t believe that Cerebral Palsy requires treatment in adulthood. In order for the treatment to remain effective, it has to continue until my new pump and everything arrives, which means I get to continue to be cranky and uncomfortable and sleep-deprived until such time as everything finally gets here.
Soon, I hope.
So, I’ve kinda fallen off the radar, let a few of my sponsors down, dropped the ball in some pretty unfortunate ways over the last couple weeks… but I’m trying to get back into the swing of things and get myself into a groove so I can feel like there’s some modicum of normalcy to things, even though I’m not feeling too great. And what better time than October – the greatest of all months – to do so? My birthday is in two days, and I have low-key been celebrating Halloween in my head for at least three weeks now.
I guess the only thing you can do sometimes is just keep swimming. Or, ya know, summon a demon or two, pick up a voodoo doll at the local supermarket… the usual.
Bring it on.
[Skin][Eudora Beauty]Amber (Pale)
[Brows][A R T E]Rebel Eyebrow
[Coat][Vinyl @ Salem]Season of the Witch
[Tune][Ruelle – Monsters]