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60. How to… find things to smile about.

Yesterday, I lost my gran. We’re still stuck in the house, doing our due diligence with social distancing to help save the world and whatnot, but even us introverts want to escape from time to time. In my case, this is ten-fold in light of the train wreck that has been the last couple weeks…and the fact that I am stuck inside my house with two very extroverted people who don’t seem to know how to entertain themselves inside at all.

So today, I logged into SL, and I rode around on a tiny, adorable dinosaur with a large head and tiny arms. I made him dance. I pulled out my country playlist. Back in the day, my family would gather around the karaoke machine and sing our asses off. We didn’t have to go anywhere to have fun. My dad would put a Dixie Chicks song on, or the Judds, or Reba, and point to me and my mom, and we’d just go for it. Sometimes, my uncle would play guitar. If my grandfather was visiting, it was basically a family rule that I sing “Grandpa” to him while everyone acted like I was still the same age as I did when I first learned it. It was fun for the sake of fun.

I’ve been feeling myself slipping lately. Depression can be such a witch, and I’ve been patting myself on the back the last couple weeks thinking I had a pretty damn good hold on things. But then we’ve been stuck in the house, and the weather has been awful, and it’s been cold, and then yesterday happened and the bottom dropped out.

So today was needed. A little bit of silliness, a few smiles and surprises from the people who care about me, and I am feeling a bit better. I’m okay right now… which I guess is the best it’s going to get for now. One of the many, many pieces of advice I got from my gran apart from “for the love of God, don’t ever let your little sister cut your hair” (long story) and “if they don’t like you, f*** them” was that it was okay to not be okay all the time. So I’m okay right now, and I may see a picture on the wall in five minutes when I’m walking toward the living room and lose my shit again, but that’s okay.

And if you’re struggling, that’s okay, too. We’re all in the same shitty boat with a busted paddle right now. Log on, and talk to someone who loves you, or find something that makes you laugh – really laugh – just for the hell of it, and then maybe, eventually, those moments will outweigh the heavier ones.

Credits:

[Shape][Divine Transformations]Nova Shape **custom**
[Head][LeLUTKA]Simone v. 3.4
[Body][Belleza]Freya 5.0
[Skin][The Skinnery]Paris (Toffee)
[Lips][Izzie’s]Matte Love Lipstick
[Hair][Stealthic]Purity (blondes)
[Top][Cynful for Fifty Linden Fridays]Gracey’s Shrug
[Skirt][Cynful @ Uber]Keeper Skirt

[Location][The Getaway]

[Tune][The Band Perry – If I Die Young]

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