58. How to… be happy.

This week has sucked. Y’all remember those commercials for Staples with the easy button? I find myself feeling like I need a reset button for this week, because while things are seldom easy, this week has essentially knocked me down and kicked me a few times with some nice pointy heels, and I’m just exhausted. And you know… I don’t know if it’s the lack of sleep or just a combination of everything that could possibly go wrong going wrong at exactly the same time, but it’s got me doing an uncomfortable amount of thinking, and I’ll admit, I’ve not exactly been in the best place with some of it, but last night, I was talking to a friend of mine, and she made an analogy about life and books…

Y’all know how much I love books. It’s a problem. Anyway… She made this analogy, and it was just so perfect, and even just thinking of things like that, even though I still feel like I have zero control over anything right now, made me feel so much better.

Our books are written. Whoever has the pen in my case might be a sadist, but that’s okay. Our books are written… but that also means that this is just one chapter out of who knows how many more to come. So, as much as it sucks right now, I’m where I’m supposed to be. If I wasn’t where I am right now, if previous chapters in my life hadn’t led me to this point in time, to these people… I have no idea who I would be today, but I know I wouldn’t be me, and as much as life sucks sometimes, I’m pretty damn happy with myself. I think some of my chapters are just a little longer than other ones, and I know this one will end soon, and another one will begin.

And you know what? I can be happy, because despite all that, I know that the next chapter that’s coming is going to be a whole new adventure. I don’t have to close the book. I don’t have to like it when my favorite character dies, or when the protagonist finds herself backed into a corner, but I know she’ll make it, because this story? My story? It’s going to have a happy ending despite what’s in the past.

So you know what? I’m done worrying about things that are outside of my control, and people who hurt me for no reason, and things that don’t seem to work out the way I want them to… because maybe, just maybe, the next chapter has something even bigger and better for me, and these few extra bumps in my road are just a little bit of character building. Instead of letting them get me down, I’m going to be happy in spite of them… or to spite them. Either way, it works for me.

But it can work for y’all, too.

Thanks to Kulaan and Ryanna for helping me with the first of many upcoming collab photos. ❤

Credits:

Nova:

[Shape][Divine Transformations]Nova Shape **custom**
[Head][LeLUTKA]Simone v. 3.4
[Body][Belleza]Freya 5.0
[Skin][The Skinnery]Paris (Toffee)
[Lips][Izzie’s]Matte Love Lipstick
[Hair][Stealthic]Purity (blondes)
[Top][Blueberry]Ride or Die crop/flannel
[Shorts][Blueberry]Ride or Die shorts

Ryanna’s Outfit:

[Top][Just Because]Lory Top
[Pants][Just Because]Lory Pants

Kulaan’s Outfit:

[Top][Mossu]Alan Polo Shirt (white)
[Pants][FashionNatic]Enrique Pants (beige)

[Pose – Ryanna/Kulaan][oOo Studio]Follow Collection
[Pose – Nova][Del May Poses]Slumped Lean

[Backdrop][anxiety]vibe

[Tune][Carly Pearce and Lee Brice – I Hope You’re Happy Now]