I couldn’t help it, y’all. This is blog post #25 here, and I feel like I’m finally getting into a routine. And, of course, thinking about the fact that I’ve gotten myself into a routine brought routines to mind…and I realized just how widely-helpful and healthful having a routine can be. It doesn’t matter if you’re trying to start a new habit, or trying to break an old one that is unhealthy for you.
See, I’m one of those people. I’m a huge empath, which, among other things, also leads me to be a huge people-pleaser. It almost makes me physically ill when I feel like my universe is out of whack. I can’t stand to know a friend is hurting, and I can’t stand being the cause for someone else’s pain. I also tend to be ridiculously forgiving, even in some circumstances where the little voice in my head is telling me otherwise. Again and again, I was repeating this pattern. It didn’t matter if the person had hurt me a million times and I knew in my heart it was going to be a million and one. It didn’t matter if it was a toxic “friend” or an ex-lover. If I thought that holding up the bridge myself and letting people walk across it while I slowly crumbled beneath the weight would make people happy and take away that nagging sense that my universe was going to flip upside down, I’d do it. I’d made it a habit.
But we have good habits and bad ones, see? And here I spent all this time nurturing the bad habit because I thought it was a good thing, and ignoring the things I should have been doing for myself and my own happiness.
And you know what? I eventually realized it, and I started breaking some of those old habits and building my way towards new ones. Healthier ones. But that shit is hard, guys. It’s not easy to turn something into a habit. There have been studies on it and everything. It’s a pain in the ass no matter which way you slice it.
But I did it, and so can you. It’s scary as hell. It’s daunting. It feels like you’re constantly going uphill, and every time you think you’re about to reach the top, you realize you still have a few more steps to go. It’s hard and hell, sometimes even a little painful, but it does get easier. I promise. You just have to keep swimming.
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